Yesterday …
I’ve been living in this world for 14 years and only now do I realise, how time flies. Frankly saying I don’t really enjoy being a teenager. I miss being a little kid. I miss playing catching with my little little childhood friends at the playground. I miss swimming in the baby pool where the water was shallow. I miss going to kindergarten where all the teachers would smile all day and would give you sweets & chocolates. I really miss those days. How I wish that whatever I am experiencing now, in this real chaotic world is just a dream. I want to get back to the old days!
As a kid, I had no worries about anything at all. However now, being a little bit more older I began to understand more things in life. I worried about many things. Almost everytime whenever I go to sleep at night, I wonder if I will wake up the next morning. I wonder if anyone in my family will die. I love my mum,dad and sister too much. The thought of having to let them go one day forever is really scary. I love them too very much. I lost my dear favourite grandmother 2 years ago and I don’t want to lose anyone else anymore. If only we could all live forever, though I know it won’t be possible.
Right now, I’m in secondary 2, taking the 962 bus from interchange all the way to school. 20years from now, where will I be? Will I still be able to remember the bus route to school ? Will I still be able to recognise the buildings that was along the way? Will I miss my school? Will I still be able to remember all of my friends name? There is so many will I’s. The world is just a temporary place to live in. Well maybe I got to learn to move on and to let go of the past, and be brave to face the future, come what may.
If only yesterday could come again ….
