I’ve been living in this world for 14 years and only now do I realise, how time flies. Frankly saying I don’t really enjoy being a teenager. I miss being a little kid. I miss playing catching with my little little childhood friends at the playground. I miss swimming in the baby pool where the water was shallow. I miss going to kindergarten where all the teachers would smile all day and would give you sweets & chocolates. I really miss those days. How I wish that whatever I am experiencing now, in this real chaotic world is just a dream. I want to get back to the old days!

As a kid, I had no worries about anything at all. However now, being a little bit more older I began to understand more things in life. I worried about many things. Almost everytime whenever I go to sleep at night, I wonder if I will wake up the next morning. I wonder if anyone in my family will die. I love my mum,dad and sister too much. The thought of having to let them go one day forever is really scary. I love them too very much. I lost my dear favourite grandmother 2 years ago and I don’t want to lose anyone else anymore. If only we could all live forever, though I know it won’t be possible.

Right now, I’m in secondary 2, taking the 962 bus from interchange all the way to school. 20years from now, where will I be? Will I still be able to remember the bus route to school ? Will I still be able to recognise the buildings that was along the way? Will I miss my school? Will I still be able to remember all of my friends name? There is so many will I’s. The world is just a temporary place to live in. Well maybe I got to learn to move on and to let go of the past, and be brave to face the future, come what may.

If only yesterday could come again ….

Yes. Am I having insomnia ? Haha kidding. Maybe mine would be a temporary insomnia. Its already 5.10am now, and I could still not sleep! I have been on the computer from 8.30pm to 5.10am. So, what time will I wake up tomorrow? Actually today, probably in the noon. Bad attitude right? But hey! I spent 9months studying! Excluding June holidays and I did not really spent much time on the computer during the school days. But hey, I only use the computer thrice a week, leaving 4days for meaningful activities for this holidays.

Addicted? Yes I am! But I know my addiction would stop, the moment school reopens because I’d be preoccupied with homeworks and studying for exams and stuffs. So, what got me addicted to the computer? Its because my computer is black and slim and gorgeous! Kidding, right I know that was an unfunny joke. Pathetic? Yes you’re right!

Lets see, and recall what I’ve been doing that got me so hooked up on the computer. Firstly, went to y8.com and played many many cooking and food games, for hours. Then went on to maidmarian.com/MOONBASE.htm to meet all my penpals from England,America,Iran and all.We chatted like crazy, hehs I miss them already! After the fun in moonbase got to zero percent, I went on to meez.com and spent hours fussing on the tubes and dress for my doll, the hairstyle, makeup, the eye colour, shape of nose and shoes. Till I get so tired of it that I blogged !

My handphone is on very low battery right now. I am way too lazy to charge it. Right now, I do feel sleppy. Nighty nighty!

Cheers,

-yuyun-